Saturday, March 10

Is This What The Future Holds?

Tonight I am babysitting my friends 9 yr old and 4 yr old. We just went over to her house for M to get his hair cut but the kids some how managed to hop into the trunk and came home with us. I have watched these kids since the oldest was a baby. I watched the 4 yr old the first year of his life. He's my buddy. Tonight me and the kids have been ganging up on M, then the roles get reversed and they gang up on me. Just a few snippets of our evening..

Eating @ Wendy'$
M: Hey InDueTime!
Me: *looks up* Huh?
M: *blows the straw paper at me*
Me: *slaps him on the arm* What the fuck? We are in PUBLIC!
H: *giggling*throws straw paper at me*
C: *giggling*throws whole damn straw at me*
People Around Us: *laughing*
Me: *not laughing* I came in here with two kids and I am leaving with three, UGH!

While I Type This
M: H, tell her to come to bed, it's getting late.
H: Um, DUH, She can do what she wants, ain't that right InDueTime?
Me: *smiles, nods, and keeps typing*

I really know with out a doubt, I want to be a Mom. I know this wait is killing me at times. We were sitting around the living room table all playing with playd0h and making funny things and the kids were laughing. I sat there many times thinking how much I can't wait for that to be us with our two kids. Tonight though, I am happy and having fun. I really need to work on my attitude and emotions, this week they have really been getting the best of me and people are starting to think I am a bit bitchy at times. Sigh. Fucking emotions.

1 comment:

Lut C. said...

I'm glad you had fun babysitting.

It's normal that your emotions get the better of you sometimes.
I know they've gotten the better of me, on many occasions, and it has cost me. On my good days, I try to work on them, on my bad days, I try to limit the damage.