Last night was pretty rough, almost as bad as the other night. I did finally fall asleep around three this morning. But after talking with a few friends last night when I was upset I think I have made my decision. It's not an easy one. I am going to wear this decision for the next few weeks until we have our date. I think I know deep in my heart this is what is best for me. I have worked long and hard at this relationship since day one. There is no doubt in his mind how much I love him. So I will go with this decision with no regrets, no matter how hard it is going to be. I will let you all know what I have decided after we have our big talk.
Keep us in your prayers if you can.
Thank you all so much for being here for me right now, I haven't felt this bad/sad in a very, very long time, and it's killing me.